Oh anxiety, the toxic friend who doesn’t understand that you don’t want to hang out with her anymore. She cares about you. Wants the best for you. But she doesn’t realise that all the screaming about the coming of wolves and eagles, is bringing the wolves and eagles to us. I tell her to shut… Continue reading My toxic best friend (rumination)
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‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
By S. R. Crawford Attending your own funeral is not only allowed but encouraged. Best to accept one’s death in witnessing those who have come to mourn you. Of course, you mourn yourself, too. All the things you weren’t. All the things you’ll never be, now. I thought too much. I wished with all my… Continue reading ‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
Anxiety update
I thought I’d feel different. I said to my sister not long before my wedding day that I felt like once the wedding was done, I’d feel euphoric. All anxiety would slip away. That I’d have done the “hardest thing I’ve ever had to do” and so I’d feel invincible. Makes some sense, right? Overcome… Continue reading Anxiety update
Biracial Hair Journey: the struggle is real
Is it just me, or do you feel like you hate your hair nearly every day? As a biracial woman (white and black Caribbean) I want to embrace my natural hair. To let my curls run free and wild. But I’m really struggling. They’re not… healthy? They’re not curly… enough? And I don’t know how… Continue reading Biracial Hair Journey: the struggle is real
Pep Talk and Tips for Writers With Low Self Esteem
I’ve been hearing a phrase that I don’t like lately and I think it’s even more horrible coming from a writer’s mouth. “I need…” Why do I hate this? Because it sounds like desperation. I sounds like a task or a chore. Writing shouldn’t feel that way. Not at first, especially. You don’t need to… Continue reading Pep Talk and Tips for Writers With Low Self Esteem
10 questions to ask yourself before posting on social media
Is this post coming from a place of truth and joy? What is the reason for this post? What’s its purpose? What’s the point? How will this post be viewed by someone who’s not in a good place in life right now?Am I adding something of value to the Internet, someone’s feed, or my own… Continue reading 10 questions to ask yourself before posting on social media
Dad’s 20th Anniversary
I don’t have enough memories of you. A childhood rife with play and imagination wasn’t enough to keep you here. I wish I’d used that mind to conjure up a father who stayed. Who would you be at night when I was in sweats from nightmares?Or maybe I wouldn’t get nightmares anymore, if you were around. Daddy to the rescue. All… Continue reading Dad’s 20th Anniversary
How healthy am I? (Journal entry)
How healthy am I? I know for sure I’m healthier than I used to be. I eat better. I sleep better. I walk more. I have deeper more meaningful conversations. I create during my weeks. I stretch. I drink loads of water. I care for my hair and protect it. I notice my thoughts. I’m… Continue reading How healthy am I? (Journal entry)
Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
So it’s here. My birthday. Chapter 27. I don’t feel badly about turning 27. It’s just a number and one that doesn’t carry much significance. I feel excited if anything. With each new year, I feel a renewed sense of confidence. A year older, a year bolder they say. And I do feel more confident… Continue reading Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
Tired of thinking
I don’t want to keep thinking about how to make my life better. How to live without regrets. How to do it all, have it all. I don’t want to keep stressing over who has what and who is living better than I am. When does it all stop? When your 20s are over? Or… Continue reading Tired of thinking
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