By S. R. Crawford Attending your own funeral is not only allowed but encouraged. Best to accept one’s death in witnessing those who have come to mourn you. Of course, you mourn yourself, too. All the things you weren’t. All the things you’ll never be, now. I thought too much. I wished with all my… Continue reading ‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
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Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
So it’s here. My birthday. Chapter 27. I don’t feel badly about turning 27. It’s just a number and one that doesn’t carry much significance. I feel excited if anything. With each new year, I feel a renewed sense of confidence. A year older, a year bolder they say. And I do feel more confident… Continue reading Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
Tired of thinking
I don’t want to keep thinking about how to make my life better. How to live without regrets. How to do it all, have it all. I don’t want to keep stressing over who has what and who is living better than I am. When does it all stop? When your 20s are over? Or… Continue reading Tired of thinking
Journal entry – a dream
I have a dream for my life. And yes, it is a dream and not a plan, for I fear it will never come to be. “It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live,” but perhaps Dumbledore never possessed a dream as beatific as this. A dream of peace. A dream… Continue reading Journal entry – a dream
Father’s Day Ruminations
This Father's Day, I'm thinking about TV dads. These wonderful, perfect men who are the hero for their children. Jack from This Is Us springs to mind alongside Randall. They are perfect men, to their kids, though utterly imperfect in reality. And I mean, fathers kind of get to be perfect in ways mothers never… Continue reading Father’s Day Ruminations
Undoing Series: Reality Checking
I wanted this to be the first post in the Undoing series because it’s the most important. If you don’t read any others, that’s fine, but this one will help you with all the other areas because it’s more of a tool than a concept or abstract idea. When it comes to feeling low about… Continue reading Undoing Series: Reality Checking
We Are Our Own Villains (podcast)
Today I'm dropping in with a quick one discussing two things: the origins of our fear and sadness, maybe there's a story you're telling yourself that links to it; and how our expectations of ourselves are causing us to be both the victim and the villain. Click to play! xx
‘What if’ – an open journal
What if after all this time, you were lucky and blessed all along? What if those moments that felt endless were the ones that made you strong? What if every fear you’ve ever had never sees the light of day? And maybe you’re not actually the ugly one, the dumb one, the poor one, the… Continue reading ‘What if’ – an open journal
Journal Entry on Rising Anxiety
I think right now I just don’t feel grounded at all. Like my foundations are tectonic plates shifting. It’ll either cause mountains of beauty ... or an erupting volcano or a straight up earthquake. I don’t know which. I don’t feel in control of the outcome. It’s overwhelming, confusing, tiring, discombobulating, and has caused a… Continue reading Journal Entry on Rising Anxiety
Visualisation Tool: Scenario Exploration for Anxious Overthinkers
If you are an anxious overthinker, like me, then your mind is used to imagining the worst and thinking about every scenario. But what if I encouraged you to do this in a more focused and productive way? You're already an intelligent, creative person, because overthinking and imagination go hand-in-hand. Why not use this skill… Continue reading Visualisation Tool: Scenario Exploration for Anxious Overthinkers
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