I’m re-realising that I need to be careful with the stories I tell myself about myself, other people, life, and the world. This narrative I’m creating about who I am and what I want. The lies. The fears that speak so confidently that I think they’re true. That I’m a weak person. I can't handle… Continue reading Careful with complacency and fixed ideas
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‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
By S. R. Crawford Attending your own funeral is not only allowed but encouraged. Best to accept one’s death in witnessing those who have come to mourn you. Of course, you mourn yourself, too. All the things you weren’t. All the things you’ll never be, now. I thought too much. I wished with all my… Continue reading ‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
Anxiety update
I thought I’d feel different. I said to my sister not long before my wedding day that I felt like once the wedding was done, I’d feel euphoric. All anxiety would slip away. That I’d have done the “hardest thing I’ve ever had to do” and so I’d feel invincible. Makes some sense, right? Overcome… Continue reading Anxiety update
I married my best friend!
We did it. On Saturday, we finally did it. The day has come and gone by so quickly. I won't go into the intimate details of our day, as it's private and for our closest people to share with us only. But it was magical. Everyone says that their wedding day was the best day… Continue reading I married my best friend!
Biracial Hair Journey: the struggle is real
Is it just me, or do you feel like you hate your hair nearly every day? As a biracial woman (white and black Caribbean) I want to embrace my natural hair. To let my curls run free and wild. But I’m really struggling. They’re not… healthy? They’re not curly… enough? And I don’t know how… Continue reading Biracial Hair Journey: the struggle is real
Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
So it’s here. My birthday. Chapter 27. I don’t feel badly about turning 27. It’s just a number and one that doesn’t carry much significance. I feel excited if anything. With each new year, I feel a renewed sense of confidence. A year older, a year bolder they say. And I do feel more confident… Continue reading Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
Don’t be blinded by the negative
Why don’t we allow ourselves to be happy? Why do we steal from ourselves so often? I cried during yoga the other day because a thought came into my head and overwhelmed me: Good things are allowed to happen to me… Why did this bring me to tears? Why did this resonate so much? Because… Continue reading Don’t be blinded by the negative
The Importance of Bravery and Beauty (podcast)
Today I am talking about what it means to be brave and why we admire it in others, alongside the importance of beauty and the role it plays in our everyday lives. Click to play! xx
The missing things (journal entry)
I've realised that there are quite a few things I've missed lately. Like holes in a wall that you didn't notice at first but now can't stop looking at. I've missed the ability to meet my friend in a cafe and chat for hours about books (our own and other people's) until we realise we… Continue reading The missing things (journal entry)
When Your Identity is Questioned (podcast)
Are you feeling like you're not good enough? Like who you are is being examined and questioned? Yeah, same... I think part of the issue (which I didn't talk about in the episode because I rushed it, to be honest, is this culture of perfectionism and performance. Where we want to be, NEED to be,… Continue reading When Your Identity is Questioned (podcast)
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