Why are we so hard on ourselves? As if life isn’t hard enough as it is! We cut ourselves down with a sharpened scythe, hoping to fit in with people and places that don’t value us. We try so hard, gasping and screaming and gripping with blistered fingers at the edges of what we think… Continue reading Tired of the battle with myself (journal entry)
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What’s truly scary (motivation for the last 2 months of the year)
You know what’s scarier than getting on the plane? Never having left your hometown and widened your perspective. To stay small and inexperienced, not understanding, on a deeper personal level, the other cultures and beauties in this world. That’s terrifying. You know what’s scarier than publishing a book and being judged? Not publishing and bearing… Continue reading What’s truly scary (motivation for the last 2 months of the year)
I’m not boring. You’re just bored!
I’ve always been called boring. Less so in adulthood, but many times in my developing years. As an introverted, shy girl, I was “boring” to many of my more extroverted peers and family members. But it took me to reach my 27th year to realise that I’m not boring. Not at all! I’m not boring… Continue reading I’m not boring. You’re just bored!
There’s more to you than you think
Sometimes we don’t realise how deep our personality and interests go. Just as a fun exercise, I have written the things I like/about me down below. If you’re nosy, have a nose! But I encourage you to do the same when you feel a little disconnected from yourself. Remind yourself who you are and how… Continue reading There’s more to you than you think
I want stories to tell
I realised today that I am not a writer. Yes, I write. Yes, I can write well at times. But I am not a writer. A writer, to me, sounds like someone who is an expert; or enjoys it; or is well-practiced in the wielding of words. Words are their tools. They’re a wordsmith. Maybe… Continue reading I want stories to tell
Self Care September Ideas
I am trying to get ahead of the summer's end blues and Seasonal Affected Disorder that I sometimes wrestle with come Autumn/Winter time. Therefore, I'm having a "Self-Care September". This will help to refill my cup ready for October when my final year of university begins, as well as be gentle with myself while I'm… Continue reading Self Care September Ideas
‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
By S. R. Crawford Attending your own funeral is not only allowed but encouraged. Best to accept one’s death in witnessing those who have come to mourn you. Of course, you mourn yourself, too. All the things you weren’t. All the things you’ll never be, now. I thought too much. I wished with all my… Continue reading ‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
Anxiety update
I thought I’d feel different. I said to my sister not long before my wedding day that I felt like once the wedding was done, I’d feel euphoric. All anxiety would slip away. That I’d have done the “hardest thing I’ve ever had to do” and so I’d feel invincible. Makes some sense, right? Overcome… Continue reading Anxiety update
I married my best friend!
We did it. On Saturday, we finally did it. The day has come and gone by so quickly. I won't go into the intimate details of our day, as it's private and for our closest people to share with us only. But it was magical. Everyone says that their wedding day was the best day… Continue reading I married my best friend!
Biracial Hair Journey: the struggle is real
Is it just me, or do you feel like you hate your hair nearly every day? As a biracial woman (white and black Caribbean) I want to embrace my natural hair. To let my curls run free and wild. But I’m really struggling. They’re not… healthy? They’re not curly… enough? And I don’t know how… Continue reading Biracial Hair Journey: the struggle is real
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