When the wind lashes at the trees it sounds like rain. Close your eyes and there’s a whole storm out there. That’s what it’s like inside my mind. The reality is just a bit of wind blowing the trees, but my mind convinces me that it’s an horrendous storm that I can’t weather. Opening the… Continue reading Weathering the storm
Tag: perspective
Why I need to lean into my weird
I want to live an unconventional life. Maybe “want” isn’t the right word but I’m drawn to one. I’ve accidentally already been unconventional. That’s the word my mom has used. I took an unconventional path for my university degree by dropping out of traditional university twice, then starting an Open University degree aged 24 and… Continue reading Why I need to lean into my weird
Racing, racing, racing
I’m panting, breathless. My legs hurt from this race that will never end. I hopped into your lane at some point; when was that? But you’re too far ahead to see. I’m sure you lapped me when I wasn’t looking. Maybe when I was crying about my failures. Maybe when I was napping in a… Continue reading Racing, racing, racing
Maybe we can never truly understand ourselves
The mind, the brain, it’s a crazy thing. We use it to understand it. What a paradox. How utterly impossible a feat. Psychology aims to understand and categorise but I fear we never will, and that’s both beautiful and terrifying. We have all these convenient hacks for the brain. How to optimise the mind. I’m… Continue reading Maybe we can never truly understand ourselves
Protecting your energy and gaining more peace
Here are some ways that I believe you can protect your energy and feel a sense of peace in your life - hard part is, they’re not easy to do! However, I think they work because they strip things back to the basics and honour the truth under all the chaos… Make sure your basic… Continue reading Protecting your energy and gaining more peace
Sunday night gratitude and reflection
I’m grateful for the weekend I’ve had. I’m grateful that the roads weren’t bad and we got there safely. I’m grateful I was able to sleep and be more sociable the next day. I grateful for the special people in my life who make it that little bit more interesting. I’m grateful for the clear… Continue reading Sunday night gratitude and reflection
Ruining things for ourselves
Expectations are a dangerous thing. I think it’s one of the biggest causes of misery. We expect things of ourselves, others, and our lives and then we get disappointed when those expectations aren’t met. It can also work negatively by expecting something to be bad or to go wrong, when actually it might be the… Continue reading Ruining things for ourselves
Panic
(TRIGGER WARNING FOR ANXIETY) Overwhelming rush of blood surges through your body. This isn’t unfamiliar. A old friend turned foe. The rising from your stomach to your chest, you’re sure you’re going to vomit. Vomit all the black stuff that sits inside you, poisoning you. When did this black monstrosity get inside? What did you… Continue reading Panic
Letting go of projects (for now)
Yesterday evening I was writing in my journal and realised I needed to let go of my expectations of my summer productivity. It was hard but necessary. I had lofty goals for summer. 6 whole weeks off from work feels like so much time. And it is; I’m so grateful for it. But the time… Continue reading Letting go of projects (for now)
Is critiquing creative work almost pointless?
Critiquing art is not my favourite. I do it naturally. I think we all do. But I don’t like it. When I’m self aware, I get an icky feeling. Someone worked hard (probably) on this thing and here we are just tearing it apart. It’s unkind. But more importantly, it’s nonsensical really! Art is so… Continue reading Is critiquing creative work almost pointless?
S. R. Crawford 