I am burnt out. This means feeling tired, fatigued, low mood, exhausted, ruminating, worrying, unfocused, unmotivated. My last year of university has been difficult and trying to progress in my work has added to the pressure. On top of that, I’ve been overthinking about my age and what it means for me. 28 is a… Continue reading Burn out and a spring reset
Tag: mentality
What Causes Indecision?
One of the things I’ve been wrestling with lately is indecision. That’s it in a nutshell. Full of options and lacking the clarity or confidence to know which path to walk. Indecision leads to paralysis; decision fatigue and analysis paralysis from thinking too much and not taking action. It’s draining. It feels physically painful at… Continue reading What Causes Indecision?
Be specific with your words when defining what you want
Words hold a lot of meaning but a lot of that meaning is personal. Yes, there is a dictionary definition for most words but how we understand them can be influenced by culture, upbringing, change, the times we live in, and context. I thought about this today because I was saying to myself that I… Continue reading Be specific with your words when defining what you want
The problem with reviewing art (films, tv, books)
Lately I’ve been trying to review the things I watch and read more than I used to. Why? Because it encourages me to engage more critically and closely with these things. To consume with a keen eye. This in turn helps me develop my own writing and my own tastes. However, I’ve noticed how difficult… Continue reading The problem with reviewing art (films, tv, books)
Retreating
I feel this need, this sense of urgency to retreat inward. To go off the grid and be solo for a while. Not to post. Not to share. Not to outwardly be working on something. Not to be defined by, and have my time dictated by, grades and essays. Not to be working on the… Continue reading Retreating
Changing the language around my anxiety
(This is a personal experiment I am trying to shift my mindset about my anxiety. I am not suggesting people with anxiety should do the same, especially if they suffer from severe anxiety or panic disorders. I have worked for over a decade with therapists, doctors, books, and my own personal experiences to get to… Continue reading Changing the language around my anxiety
Repeated life lessons
In 2022, I was reminded that people don’t think as I do. We are not all the same, even deep down. Some people will villainise you. Some people will look off in another direction and see something you don’t see, while saying you are wrong. Some people have stubborn minds. Some people are hurt so… Continue reading Repeated life lessons
My intentions for 2023
I wanted to desperately to have a beautiful, simple idea to guide my year. Every year I like to pick a motto or phrase to help me stay focused and set the tone for my year. As you go, of course, you forget what this was, unless you intentionally revisit it. My motto for last… Continue reading My intentions for 2023
My year at a glance
As per usual, this is my post about what my year’s achievements and high points were. I like looking back at these as the years go by, so that’s why I document it all. Got married in summer Changed jobs to a better school Ran 5x5km runs (never ran 5km before) Wrote an 84,000 word… Continue reading My year at a glance
Self-Censorship
I wrote a long reflection post about my time in South Africa. But I deleted it. I felt censored. I felt afraid to say the truth of my experience. I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, even though my feelings were hurt many times on and around the trip. It’s lead me to writing this… Continue reading Self-Censorship
S. R. Crawford 