Something I want to try for the change in seasons is romanticising my life a bit more. Autumn and winter are very aesthetically pleasing and vibey times of year, and so I thought this was a perfect time to practice this idea. I have watched some content about “romanticising your life” but I want to… Continue reading Romanticising your life
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Slower and intentional living: I don’t want to be pushing for the rest of my life
I’ve spent most of my adulthood so far, ten years, worrying and stressing and panicking. I’m 28 and all I desire right now is not to be bettering myself. I know I’ve built content around this very idea over many years, but that doesn’t feel right to me anymore. Not right now, anyway. Because whether… Continue reading Slower and intentional living: I don’t want to be pushing for the rest of my life
Reasons why you find it hard to write a book / novel
Many people have the dream of writing a novel, but what separates those who do it from those who don’t quite manage? Here are some of my ideas as to why you may be finding it hard to write your book / novel and then I will go into some advice on how to make… Continue reading Reasons why you find it hard to write a book / novel
Thoughts on potential, freedom, endings, and time
University is finished. I’ve felt mentally done for a while though. That last push was difficult but it’s final over and it’s got me thinking. Over the last few months, I’ve been considering what this end means for me. With university being over, I have more free time and headspace. I have this piece of… Continue reading Thoughts on potential, freedom, endings, and time
What Causes Indecision?
One of the things I’ve been wrestling with lately is indecision. That’s it in a nutshell. Full of options and lacking the clarity or confidence to know which path to walk. Indecision leads to paralysis; decision fatigue and analysis paralysis from thinking too much and not taking action. It’s draining. It feels physically painful at… Continue reading What Causes Indecision?
My toxic best friend (rumination)
Oh anxiety, the toxic friend who doesn’t understand that you don’t want to hang out with her anymore. She cares about you. Wants the best for you. But she doesn’t realise that all the screaming about the coming of wolves and eagles, is bringing the wolves and eagles to us. I tell her to shut… Continue reading My toxic best friend (rumination)
September’s Song (journal entry)
September's song slips over the hill. She's on her way. And as much as coffee dates and jumpers feed my soul, I'm terrified of summer's end. Why can't I have it both ways? The endless days of summer, alongside the cosy autumn vibes? Because the colours rust, orange, and burnt yellow are my favourite. A… Continue reading September’s Song (journal entry)
Careful with complacency and fixed ideas
I’m re-realising that I need to be careful with the stories I tell myself about myself, other people, life, and the world. This narrative I’m creating about who I am and what I want. The lies. The fears that speak so confidently that I think they’re true. That I’m a weak person. I can't handle… Continue reading Careful with complacency and fixed ideas
‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
By S. R. Crawford Attending your own funeral is not only allowed but encouraged. Best to accept one’s death in witnessing those who have come to mourn you. Of course, you mourn yourself, too. All the things you weren’t. All the things you’ll never be, now. I thought too much. I wished with all my… Continue reading ‘I Think, Perhaps’ (a short story)
Anxiety update
I thought I’d feel different. I said to my sister not long before my wedding day that I felt like once the wedding was done, I’d feel euphoric. All anxiety would slip away. That I’d have done the “hardest thing I’ve ever had to do” and so I’d feel invincible. Makes some sense, right? Overcome… Continue reading Anxiety update
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