So it’s here. My birthday. Chapter 27. I don’t feel badly about turning 27. It’s just a number and one that doesn’t carry much significance. I feel excited if anything. With each new year, I feel a renewed sense of confidence. A year older, a year bolder they say. And I do feel more confident… Continue reading Chapter 27 – birthday rumination
Tag: fear
Don’t be blinded by the negative
Why don’t we allow ourselves to be happy? Why do we steal from ourselves so often? I cried during yoga the other day because a thought came into my head and overwhelmed me: Good things are allowed to happen to me… Why did this bring me to tears? Why did this resonate so much? Because… Continue reading Don’t be blinded by the negative
The Importance of Bravery and Beauty (podcast)
Today I am talking about what it means to be brave and why we admire it in others, alongside the importance of beauty and the role it plays in our everyday lives. Click to play! xx
The missing things (journal entry)
I've realised that there are quite a few things I've missed lately. Like holes in a wall that you didn't notice at first but now can't stop looking at. I've missed the ability to meet my friend in a cafe and chat for hours about books (our own and other people's) until we realise we… Continue reading The missing things (journal entry)
When Your Identity is Questioned (podcast)
Are you feeling like you're not good enough? Like who you are is being examined and questioned? Yeah, same... I think part of the issue (which I didn't talk about in the episode because I rushed it, to be honest, is this culture of perfectionism and performance. Where we want to be, NEED to be,… Continue reading When Your Identity is Questioned (podcast)
Ode to the socially anxious
Are socially anxious people always acting? Always completing a stage performance? “Lights, camera, action!” every time they leave their home? I deserve an Oscar. Countless times have I stepped up onto the stage of life and performed until I felt weak. Feigning fascination until I feel faint. The mask seems glued to my face now.… Continue reading Ode to the socially anxious
Trying to explain what anxiety and panic feels like
Your thoughts come in rogue waves, tumbling and fumbling over one another, demanding to be heard. Hot electricity bolting through your veins without pattern or prediction. Bubbling, boiling bile acidic in your stomach and growing wider and wider. Breaths caught between your chest and your throat, rising falling rising falling rising falling in quick sharp… Continue reading Trying to explain what anxiety and panic feels like
How to Begin to Let Go of Control (podcast)
I am someone who looks for control in all situations and to be honest, it's exhausting. We can't control everything, so why bother? Today I'm doing a personal and honest conversation about our need for control, why it's no good for us, and what to do instead. Click to play! xx
We Are Our Own Villains (podcast)
Today I'm dropping in with a quick one discussing two things: the origins of our fear and sadness, maybe there's a story you're telling yourself that links to it; and how our expectations of ourselves are causing us to be both the victim and the villain. Click to play! xx
‘What if’ – an open journal
What if after all this time, you were lucky and blessed all along? What if those moments that felt endless were the ones that made you strong? What if every fear you’ve ever had never sees the light of day? And maybe you’re not actually the ugly one, the dumb one, the poor one, the… Continue reading ‘What if’ – an open journal
S. R. Crawford 