University is finished. I’ve felt mentally done for a while though. That last push was difficult but it’s final over and it’s got me thinking. Over the last few months, I’ve been considering what this end means for me. With university being over, I have more free time and headspace. I have this piece of… Continue reading Thoughts on potential, freedom, endings, and time
Tag: emotional intelligence
Chapter 28 – birthday reflection
This year feels important. 28 is an age that seems to mean so much to me and to society. It’s the age I will be graduating from university and so I am in a position to “use” my degree and progress post-university/study. It’s an age that often means settling down and thinking about children. It… Continue reading Chapter 28 – birthday reflection
Be specific with your words when defining what you want
Words hold a lot of meaning but a lot of that meaning is personal. Yes, there is a dictionary definition for most words but how we understand them can be influenced by culture, upbringing, change, the times we live in, and context. I thought about this today because I was saying to myself that I… Continue reading Be specific with your words when defining what you want
Retreating
I feel this need, this sense of urgency to retreat inward. To go off the grid and be solo for a while. Not to post. Not to share. Not to outwardly be working on something. Not to be defined by, and have my time dictated by, grades and essays. Not to be working on the… Continue reading Retreating
September’s Song (journal entry)
September's song slips over the hill. She's on her way. And as much as coffee dates and jumpers feed my soul, I'm terrified of summer's end. Why can't I have it both ways? The endless days of summer, alongside the cosy autumn vibes? Because the colours rust, orange, and burnt yellow are my favourite. A… Continue reading September’s Song (journal entry)
Careful with complacency and fixed ideas
I’m re-realising that I need to be careful with the stories I tell myself about myself, other people, life, and the world. This narrative I’m creating about who I am and what I want. The lies. The fears that speak so confidently that I think they’re true. That I’m a weak person. I can't handle… Continue reading Careful with complacency and fixed ideas
Anxiety update
I thought I’d feel different. I said to my sister not long before my wedding day that I felt like once the wedding was done, I’d feel euphoric. All anxiety would slip away. That I’d have done the “hardest thing I’ve ever had to do” and so I’d feel invincible. Makes some sense, right? Overcome… Continue reading Anxiety update
The formula for an easy life
The older I get, the more I realise that to have an easy life, you need to do two things: Work hard on creating the right systems and want less. Easy. Done! Not quite. In order to get to a place where your life feels "easy", you need to work incredibly hard to make it… Continue reading The formula for an easy life
I was wrong
What I wrote on my blog two years ago is probably wrong. Some of it. Maybe a lot of it! What I’m saying this year could be wrong two years from now. Or tomorrow! The point is, I’m wrong. And so are you. I hate this because I like getting things right. I like being… Continue reading I was wrong
Gratitude post!
This weekend has been lovely. I’ve felt a sense of relief and release. Friday evening I did a “letting go” yoga flow that made me feel amazing and helped shift the pent up energy and inner conflict I’ve felt throughout the rest of the week. I’m so grateful for that yoga session and time I… Continue reading Gratitude post!
S. R. Crawford 