I got sick this weekend. Food poisoning, for the first time in my life. Not fun. Very quickly, my mental health dipped and I went to a dark place. In just a day. It's times like this when you are made painfully aware of how not okay you really are. That just because you're smiling… Continue reading What Does it Mean to be Free?
Tag: emotional health
Thoughts on potential, freedom, endings, and time
University is finished. I’ve felt mentally done for a while though. That last push was difficult but it’s final over and it’s got me thinking. Over the last few months, I’ve been considering what this end means for me. With university being over, I have more free time and headspace. I have this piece of… Continue reading Thoughts on potential, freedom, endings, and time
Burn out and a spring reset
I am burnt out. This means feeling tired, fatigued, low mood, exhausted, ruminating, worrying, unfocused, unmotivated. My last year of university has been difficult and trying to progress in my work has added to the pressure. On top of that, I’ve been overthinking about my age and what it means for me. 28 is a… Continue reading Burn out and a spring reset
What Causes Indecision?
One of the things I’ve been wrestling with lately is indecision. That’s it in a nutshell. Full of options and lacking the clarity or confidence to know which path to walk. Indecision leads to paralysis; decision fatigue and analysis paralysis from thinking too much and not taking action. It’s draining. It feels physically painful at… Continue reading What Causes Indecision?
Be specific with your words when defining what you want
Words hold a lot of meaning but a lot of that meaning is personal. Yes, there is a dictionary definition for most words but how we understand them can be influenced by culture, upbringing, change, the times we live in, and context. I thought about this today because I was saying to myself that I… Continue reading Be specific with your words when defining what you want
Retreating
I feel this need, this sense of urgency to retreat inward. To go off the grid and be solo for a while. Not to post. Not to share. Not to outwardly be working on something. Not to be defined by, and have my time dictated by, grades and essays. Not to be working on the… Continue reading Retreating
Repeated life lessons
In 2022, I was reminded that people don’t think as I do. We are not all the same, even deep down. Some people will villainise you. Some people will look off in another direction and see something you don’t see, while saying you are wrong. Some people have stubborn minds. Some people are hurt so… Continue reading Repeated life lessons
My intentions for 2023
I wanted to desperately to have a beautiful, simple idea to guide my year. Every year I like to pick a motto or phrase to help me stay focused and set the tone for my year. As you go, of course, you forget what this was, unless you intentionally revisit it. My motto for last… Continue reading My intentions for 2023
Self-Censorship
I wrote a long reflection post about my time in South Africa. But I deleted it. I felt censored. I felt afraid to say the truth of my experience. I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, even though my feelings were hurt many times on and around the trip. It’s lead me to writing this… Continue reading Self-Censorship
Tired of the battle with myself (journal entry)
Why are we so hard on ourselves? As if life isn’t hard enough as it is! We cut ourselves down with a sharpened scythe, hoping to fit in with people and places that don’t value us. We try so hard, gasping and screaming and gripping with blistered fingers at the edges of what we think… Continue reading Tired of the battle with myself (journal entry)
S. R. Crawford 