Expectations are a dangerous thing. I think it’s one of the biggest causes of misery. We expect things of ourselves, others, and our lives and then we get disappointed when those expectations aren’t met. It can also work negatively by expecting something to be bad or to go wrong, when actually it might be the… Continue reading Ruining things for ourselves
Author: S.R. Crawford
Panic
(TRIGGER WARNING FOR ANXIETY) Overwhelming rush of blood surges through your body. This isn’t unfamiliar. A old friend turned foe. The rising from your stomach to your chest, you’re sure you’re going to vomit. Vomit all the black stuff that sits inside you, poisoning you. When did this black monstrosity get inside? What did you… Continue reading Panic
Letting go of projects (for now)
Yesterday evening I was writing in my journal and realised I needed to let go of my expectations of my summer productivity. It was hard but necessary. I had lofty goals for summer. 6 whole weeks off from work feels like so much time. And it is; I’m so grateful for it. But the time… Continue reading Letting go of projects (for now)
What I’ve Learned About My Reading Tastes This Summer
I've suspected for a while that my reading tastes are not what I once thought they were. I used to read fantasy, as I write fantasy. But when I really thought about it, I realised I don't often finish fantasy books and rate them highly. This summer, I decided to experiment with my writing style,… Continue reading What I’ve Learned About My Reading Tastes This Summer
Is critiquing creative work almost pointless?
Critiquing art is not my favourite. I do it naturally. I think we all do. But I don’t like it. When I’m self aware, I get an icky feeling. Someone worked hard (probably) on this thing and here we are just tearing it apart. It’s unkind. But more importantly, it’s nonsensical really! Art is so… Continue reading Is critiquing creative work almost pointless?
Some more gratitude (to shift unwelcome energy)
Massages (ones where they actually target your knots and sooth them) Tasty well-seasoned vegetable dishes Fans Sun dresses Morning kisses from my dog Good night kisses from my partner A good book that just grips you Fun group gatherings (as opposed to the annoying or tense ones) Summer Silky nightdress That cool breeze that filters… Continue reading Some more gratitude (to shift unwelcome energy)
Serious work
Business parks are kind of depressing to me. This place where they put all the “serious” workers. Those dedicated to a business so much that they are placed in a village of businesses, cut off from the rest of society. They’re respectable people. Professional wear adorning their rigid bodies. Tights worn too tight, tie tied… Continue reading Serious work
Discovering myself as a writer this summer
I think what I've loved about writing this summer is that it has been a real exploration of my voice as a writer. I've had to suppress the urge to fixate on 'what is this novel about?' because that, perhaps, doesn't serve me in the beginning stages of an idea. If an idea is old… Continue reading Discovering myself as a writer this summer
Glory
Should I be ashamed that winning makes me feel this good? That applause and acclaim is what I chase? Adorn me with medals, shower me with praise, so that I may feel something akin to glory, instead of the same sad story of loss. I can’t gloss over this moment of triumph and desire. A… Continue reading Glory
Survival of the fittest – adapt or fail!
Survival of the fittest is all about adaptation, right? The species that can adapt is most likely to survive because habitats and food chains and climates change, so if the species can change too, they will become extinct. Simple. Humans adapt all the time without realising it. We adapted to a highly technological world which… Continue reading Survival of the fittest – adapt or fail!